“A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones.”
Yesterday I got finished with another week of camp, your typical week. Accept this week I saw the light and to understand the inspiration that I came under I need to back up about 2 weeks. I begin to wonder what my purpose was at Caraway because I was having a hard time making a impact on the boy’s lives. I was beginning to wonder my purpose with being there. Fast forward to one morning of my most recent weeks we took the campers canoeing and kayaking. We had a storm coming in so the sky was grey with clouds that draped the camp in a nice fluorescent ambient light; a fog that seemed to flow with the current that was underneath it and the water was so calm. One of my campers was really nervous about kayaking so I told him we could go in a canoe and he could come with me, he agreed. So, I got out to a point of view that allowed me the ability to see all the campers. While sitting in the middle of the tranquility and the quietness I came in contact of real satisfaction, my soul was just silent my spirit was intuitive and my body was relaxed and thats when God him with a quote that is just so powerful “be satisfied with where I am. I do not define my purpose but rather He gives me a reason to have a purpose”
Hope to write a blog today…. They key word is “hope”
Yep, it sure is. God has been dealing heavy on my heart for the past year with this statement. As all of you know National Geographic has been my dream and my life ever since I was 7 or so. Ever since I was at my uncle’s home in the town of Durham NC, I looked through these magnificent photographs that needed no words to tell the stories right then and there I was sold. Anyone can tell you that was all I cared about, I would eat breathe National Geographic I guarantee you that my ex-girl friend will tell you that it drove her crazy how much I talked about it.
Since the beginning of 2010 God has allowed me to do some fantastic things I had a internship with my uncle’s church where he was the pastor, I was one of two youth interns. There I interacted with the youth never really taught just did more office work and went on one mission trip. For a few years I had felt like God was calling me in the ministry and after this internship that changed. I was frustrated felt like it was a summer wasted not just for me but for the youth and the youth pastor, I was bummed. After the internship I got back in school and after choosing my major (Photojournalism) the dream of NG was re-ignited but this time it just did not feel right. One semester passed and it still felt strange. I went to visit a church in Asheboro NC Cross Road Baptist Church and while visiting this church I just noticed they were on fire for missions it was contagious and next thing you know I join the church. And now this crazy up and down loop to loop story brings us to February 7th 2011 in my bedroom; where I am on my knees just in a all out battle with God not wanting to let go of my dream a couple weeks before I had read the book Radical and just put a whole new perspective on life. But the one thing that put the nail in the coffin on that February night was God had me open the Bible to Genesis 22, where Abraham was being tested to see if he would sacrifice his son not just a ordinary son this was Abraham’s only son that he loved greatly; also Sarah, Abraham’s wife, was old and for them to have a son was un thinkable. So you can see all that rested on this son and how much he was loved. I was left there in awe and humbled that a man would sacrifice his son for God made my dream seem pretty pathetic. That night at the end of my bed on February 7th 2011 I sacrificed my dream for God and where ever He leads I will follow.
Today I have a new dream I feel like God is calling me on the mission field. So after I graduate with my PJ degree I am going to try and transfer to South Eastern Theological School; where I will try and get a degree in missions, and use my gifts to photograph for mission boards.
The angel of the LORD called to Abraham from heaven a second time 16 and said, “I swear by myself, declares the LORD, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, 17 I will surely bless you
It was time to get family portraits done, my family entered in with no worries at all, me on the other hand entered with precaution and very reluctant because I like to take pictures but hate having mine taken. Also I am all to familiar with this style of business. (Now before we go any further I would like to clarify that I am not bashing the photographers that have a hard earned degree and are working in a studio setting using their skills, knowledge, and ACTUALLY know what they are doing) The style of business that when a unsuspecting customer walks through that door you pounce on them like there fresh meat, you make a used car dealer seem weak. When you start to shoot you go at a fast pace and you are not original with your angles or lighting; the part that gets me is you act over the top happy, honestly…your freaking me out. After you take all pictures and you review them with the customer. As my family stood there and looked at the huge 32 inch sony tv screen, the lady was zooming, cropping, rotating, editing, and asking which ones we wanted while moving at high rates of speed my dad replied to a comment my mother said “I am trying to decide but my head is spinning”. So here are some tips for the photographer. One when you are with customer be guanine, be true, we can tell if your faking it. Two think outside the box, make the customer want to come back to “you” not your company but “you”, when they come to get pictures made make them want to request you. Three relax, its all good in the hood! Four when going through the review don’t go so fast, go slow and actually try and save people money (and I am not talking bout the stuff on sale go the extra mile and act as if it was your money) you will be surprised how much respect you will earn.
Now don’t think I am not going to give tips to the customer, because I got your back. Ok little bit of role play here, you come to my studio and want some pictures made of your family. I get to work I shoot a couple of your family like you asked, we are grooving along. Then I slip in under your nose a portrait of your two sons then your daughter and then of you and your husband, before you know it I have all these pictures that you did not ask for and it is proving to be harder to narrow down the photographs that you want. I realize that you can not stop the photographer from shooting those extra shots I can relate once you start its hard to slow down. Heres the first and only tip I have, make a list of your budget and what photographs you want also for who so that way when the photographer tries to confuse you and get you to over pay than you can wake your self up from the shock it’s your money use it how your want to.
That quote was true today, while me and brother Andrew threw a baseball back and forth. I have been so busy this semester that I haven’t been able to spend time with him. Today the weather was so great and I was wanting to go outside so to get rid of my boredom I went to my 8 year old brother Andrew “hey you wanna go outside and play catch”. Now I am not writing this blog to get the “Aaaawwwwww he’s so sweet”, I know no one reads my blog ha ha. There is 11 years between me and it’s kinda hard to play with him because of that age difference. But as we threw that baseball back and forth hearing him laugh and smile made me feel like a million bucks and made me look forward to the spring when we can do this more. Yes I realize this blog is not about photography, sorry but I thought this was worth it. Also if my brother ever looks at my blog I hope he knows he made my day!